"Escape from Capitol Hill" - Broadway Calls

This is a local Portland band, and I can't help but wonder if they're referencing the same Capitol Hill Elementary School that I attended...




Kids don't venture out after dark!
Your best moves can't compare to,
Their words, their skills, their violent tools.
Kids don't venture out after dark!
Trust me this place will soon be,
Cold, dead, and we will all be free.

Won't settle for their answer this time
Won't settle for the answer this time.
We won't settle for it
Won't settle for your answer this time
We're breaking walls and we'll end up just fine.
We won't settle for it.

Kids don't venture out after dark!
Old habits are dying tonight
We'll set the fires
And we'll watch the smoke rise
Kids don't venture out after dark!
Trust me this place will soon be,
Ashes charred as black as can be.

"One Song Glory" - Adam Pascal (RENT)

For me, it's not a song, but... That one thing that make a real difference. I'm still searching for it, and I hope I find it before my time runs out.





Lyrics (Sung by Roger):

One Song - Glory
One Song - Before I Go
Glory - One Song To Leave Behind

Find One Song - One Last Refrain
Glory - From The Pretty Boy Front Man
Who Wasted Opportunity

One Song - He Had The World At His Feet
Glory - In The Eyes Of A Young Girl
A Young Girl
Find Glory - Beyond The Cheap Colored Lights
One Song - Before The Sun Sets
Glory - On Another Empty Life

Time Flies - Time Dies
Glory - One Blaze Of Glory
One Blaze Of Glory - Glory

Find Glory
In A Song That Rings True
Truth Like A Blazing Fire
An Eternal Flame

Find One Song
A Song About Love
Glory From The Soul Of A Young Man
A Young Man

Find - The One Song
Before The Virus Takes Hold
Glory - Like A Sunset
One Song To Redeem This Empty Life

Time Flies
And Then - No Need To Endure Anymore
Time Dies

New Start (Again)

Looking over my blog, I see that I haven't posted much but videos over the last several months. Recap: Phoenix and I broke up at Fair mid July; the day I got back to work after Fair, I was fired for missing a suicide check on a child before I left; I had to go through a bunch of red tape to get unemployment benefits, because my former employer was classified as an "educational institution" and it was "Summer Break" right then; said former employer appealed my unemployment benefits, and a Hearing was scheduled before a Judge; I won my Hearing and retained my benefits; all the while, Phoenix and I kept dating, even though we'd broken up; a week and change ago Phoenix and I hit our breaking points, and really, actually, ended it.

So here I am, starting out fresh again. My job hunt has been so far unsuccessful... I started playing in a weekly D&D campaign, so I've got something fun to do with a (mostly) new group of friends; Switch and "The Girlfriend" (that's what the DK boys are calling her these days, so I'll go with it here for pseudo-anonymity's sake) are playing too. I have a few dates, both planned and ambiguous, for over the next few weeks, so I guess I'm still a hot commodity, lol. Within one hour of changing my facebook status to Single, I had two separate requests, hehe. So, all in all, things are alright; they could be better, for sure, but they could be a whole lot worse. I've got a roof over my head that I have the means to continue paying for with my unemployment benefits, I've got a few items on my social calendar, and I'm getting a bit of attention from gentlemen callers (which is always nice for the ego, as well as simply having pleasant company to spend my time with). I haven't the slightest clue where any of the romantic-ish prospects might lead, but for now I'm just along for the ride. I hope the job hunt pans out soon before I run out of the med that I cannot afford to refill, but other than that, life is moving along nicely.

"When We Die" - Bowling For Soup

It sucks to be fighting with your parents (again...).

Bowling For Soup - When We Die - Free Music Videos

"When We Die"

Well, I know that it's early
And it's too hard to think
And the broken empty bottles
Are reminder in the sink
But I thought that I should tell you
If it's not to late to say
I could put back all the pieces,
They just might not fit the same

Nothing's worth losing
Especially the chance to make it right

And I know that we're gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes
Are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won't get it back when we die

Well, I know it's been years now,
And I don't look the same
And the hopes and dreams you had for me
You thought went down the drain.
And the room feels so empty
where my pictures used to be
And I can't say that I blame you,
But you can't blame me

Cuz nothing's worth losing
Especially the chance to make it right

And I know that we're gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won't get it back when we die

Come over
Come over

Cause I gotta know,
If I am doing this all on my own

Come over
Come over

How can I show you if you're not here

And I know that we're gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes
Are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won't get it back when we die

And I know that we're gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes
are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won't get it back when we die

Come over
Come over

Wooohooohooohaaaaawwww

"Losing Grip" - Avril Lavigne

Last straw... I'm not putting up with this crap anymore. I swore months ago that I wouldn't give Phoenix a second chance, but I did it anyway. I'm a dumb-ass some days. This isn't one of them. I'm putting my foot down; enough is enough.




"Losing Grip"

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

[chorus]
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone

Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
when you turn around can you recognize my face you used to love me,
you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't ok I was left to cry there
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

[chorus]

Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud

Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there
when I was scared I was so alone Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere
Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere