At Work

I'm sitting here at work playing with my new phone. It's pretty nifty. The wind is howling in the windows, rattling the blinds and making a fuss. Partner and I are both feeling less than stellar tonight, but ah well. This is going to be a good week, despite all the negative things planned during it.

It's Official (on Facebook)

So Phoenix and I are an item now, I guess. We chatted about what's going on with us last night, sort of came around to being boyfriend/girlfriend, and he made the joke, "now I'll have to change my facebook status...". Well, I beat him to it, lol. I'd been thinking of setting my relationship status to It's Complicated for weeks, but just hadn't wanted to make him feel weird about it. But he opened the door for me to update it myself. Hehe, I have a boyfriend. So middle school of me, but damn it, I can be disproportionately happy if I feel like it!

Good Things

Things are going well lately. Sure, I've got a weird cluster of bruises on my wrist from work, and my phone is shut off, but hey, who's counting? My new phone will arrive sometime tomorrow (yay!). I'm got a great man in my life who's willing to help me get things done and is a good shoulder to cry on when I get overwhelmed with the daily grind. I've got a warm fluffball in my lap who's purring up a little storm. I've got some pretty massive dental bills coming up, but I'll figure out how to pay for those somehow... It'll work out.

"Boulevard of Broken Songs" - Dean Gray

New Phone Hunt

I was at the dentist's on Friday to get a root canal... It went as well as could be expected, except that while there I lost my phone. I know I had it with me in the dentist's chair; I felt it when I stuffed a tissue in my pocket after hearing that my fillings won't be totally covered, they'll be $70 apiece. Then, when I left the pharmacy, I noticed that it wasn't there anymore... I got picked up by Phoenix and tried calling my phone - it was turned off. This makes me believe that someone found it and turned it off, not wanting it to ring when the owner (ME) tried to call it.
Now, instead of just getting a new piece of shit phone, I'm thinking I'll switch carriers, sign a new contract, and get a new fancy phone. So, I'm trying to decide just how much nicer I want.

Valentines Day

It is a better day than many. A day to feel cared for, and a day to celebrate friendship and kindness. It doesn't have to be all about love; it was originally created in contrast to pagan holidays celebrating fertility, etc., which endorsed general promiscuity. Valentines Day was to celebrate the monogamy of marriage, but that isn't what it's come to mean. It's a day for letting those you care about know that you care. Phoenix, Kaz, Switch, Sis, and many others... you are all in my thoughts.

Beach Part 2 / Soup

Got back from the beach in the afternoon. From where I left off, we drove north to Seaside and stopped at a diner to get some breakfast - I got strawberry blintz, and couldn't finish it, it was sooo sweet. We went on up to Ft. Stevens, and drove around there for a while. We stopped at the old battery and wandered around briefly. On our way up, we were met by a Jehovah's Witness trying to give us Watchtowers. It was cold there so we didn't stay out for very long, but Phoenix liked the acoustics of singing in the bunker. We also drove over to the beach and watched the sand get blown over a dune - it was swirling in the strong wind, very pretty to look at. We continued north over the bridge out of Astoria, to make out 2-part trek along 101 complete. I didn't want to go over the bridge, it's really high and scares me some, but we did. We went up as far as Long Beach, where we stopped to get some candy - I got a bag of salt-water taffy and he got a bag of Jelly Belly beans. We went back down into Oregon, and drove towards home along highway 30. We stopped briefly at Papa's house, just a short visit for hugs and gossip. We got back home and promptly crashed to sleep.

Tonight, I'm making my red beef stew, the one with the V8 base. I had to ride my bike over to Fred's to get the ingredients, then I realised I'd forgot something so I went up to Safeway (which is closer and still open between 11 and 12). It's been on the stove for about 2 hours, and the meat is finally softening up - it's still a little chewy, but only a little by now. Now I'm looking forward to eating it and sharing the meal with Phoenix.

Beach Adventure

Off on another weekend getaway. This weekend, I'm off at the beach with my buddy, who says that his blog name is Phoenix. For lack of anything else to use, I'll use his own nickname for himself. We took off yesterday morning. We headed for the coast, but stopped for a bit in Dallas, OR, to visit a friend of his from when he was a kiddo.
After that short detour, we headed for the coast. When we went to Cali and came back up 101, we left the coast and turned inland at Lincoln City, so this time around we headed there and took a walk on the beach. I got a pretty rock (but it fell out of my sweatshirt when I was sleeping). We grabbed some fast food and headed north. We got nearly to Tillamook, but stopped at a rest area to sleep (we'd both been awake all night). We played a little Mario World then went to sleep in the back of his car with the seats down.
We woke up a few hours ago, puttered around avoiding the cold outside of the blankets, then drove into Tillamook. He knew to look for hotels with WiFi for us to mooch, and thus my abolity to get online and post about things so far. Part 2 will probably come tomorrow or so. We're gonna play some Mario Party DS now, probably.
Peace out.

"Breaking The Habit" - Linkin Park

"Breaking The Habit"

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

[Bridge:]
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream.
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean.
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright.
So I'm breaking the habit,
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one that falls
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I’m breaking the habit
Tonight

"7 Minutes in Heaven" - Fall Out Boy

I'm sleeping my way out of this one
With anyone who will lie down
I'll be stuck fixated on one star
When the world is crashing down

I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking in through blinds
I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type

I’m sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause I don't do too well on my own
I’m sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause I don't do too well on my own

The only thing worse than not knowing
Is you thinking that I don't know
I'm having another episode
I just need a stronger dose

I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking in through blinds
I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type

I’m sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause I don't do too well on my own
I’m sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause I don't do too well on my own

I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking in through blinds
I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type

I’m sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause I don't do too well on my own